Till now..

I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
you don't know how long i have wanted
to touch your lips and hold you tight
You don't know how long I have waited
and I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
and my love for you is still unknown

Okay okay...before anyone goes "oooo...Raha's in love"...lemme just say, this IS a song. Of course, some of you would've already known.

I love to see this song performed live. One of the American Idol constestants did so and I really enjoyed it even tho' I don't like her and wouldn't have voted for her. Haha!

I'm kinda disappointed that I did pretty badly for the bowling tournament. At the end of the 2nd round, I told myself that I'm gonna end the game with 250 points. It was a target I set for myself a little too late. Haha..and I ended the game at 241. Fine..don't give me those 9 points! *ggrrrrr*

Next year...I'll be back. For them 9 points and more.

Ooooo...I received a much-anticipated invitation by Sunshine Sis...hehehehhe. 1st April marks the night of enchantment we will be experiencing....ooooo....at long last...

Maybe we have grown up...

Last night, after watching 300 (oooo...I so adore Gerard Butler and the movie of course but I am so pissed at that guy who "shhh" us..that's another story altogether), I had a good conversation with Sumi.

See....it wasn't until last night( after I'd swallowed my fifth sushi that is) that I realised we've mellowed down. I. have. mellowed.down. I did realise tho' a couple of weeks ago that I'm able to remain unfazed after being hit by the horrors that happen at work on pretty much a daily-basis. And how do I conclude this?

Coz after each day is over, I move on. I get into my car and speed off, leaving behind my worries for the day at the office. These days, I wake up every day feeling a little better that I've put the past behind me. I go about my daily routine/not-so-daily activities a little happier. However, knowing all of these surprisingly did not enlighten me one bit, not until last night.

I finally realised that I am no longer that person who gets upset at every single thing that doesn't go my way or feel soooo angry and wanna make a move at people who disregard my feelings. I.am.no.longer. an.easily.agitated.person. I just want to live my life...do the things I wanna do. I am happy with what I have achieved and I am contented with taking my own sweet time (that differs from person to person of course right?) ticking the things on my "to-do" list.

While we've...well...I've grown up....how about others? I am still hurt at the fact one of my very own has left the building and from the looks of it, ain't gonna be making another entrance anytime soon. Yes. Still am reeling a little over that coz you see, I'd never expected it to happen. This brings me to the next few questions.

Does that mean she hasn't grown up yet coz she's slowly throwing away a 10-year-old friendship? Is it not worth anything at all? Why is it that we've been going downhill ever since July 2005? How could she do this that very year before I came back to SG for good? These are questions that have been playing in my head...or should I say...were.

But I feel she's happier where she is at the moment so I'm gonna be happy for her too. So long, my friend...till you grow up...

It has been...

3 years in the making. That's what Audz reminded me last week. Bits and pieces of the plan that have come together slowly since 2004. It started with some small talks and many, many big dreams (read:dreamers) but we are people who make dreams a reality. I think. We shall see. Haha!